Well I missed last weeks update…. Busy busy busy so here goes.
Wednesday weigh in found that I had dropped to 56.2kg…. which astounded me as I’ve been eating everything healthy I can get my hands on and the Tuesday before weigh in ate no carbs and replaced that with protein, so by bed time I felt so full I felt ill…. So back to the ole drawing board….
I also had my fitness test which found me 21sec faster on my 1km time trial, I was able to do 40 push ups off my toes in 1 minute, able to hold my wall sit 55sec longer and being 1cm more flexible. Not bad. I feel now I am hitting a plateau. I don’t seem to have changed much size wise over the last couple of weeks and I don’t think my muscle definition has changed at all either so I’m getting rather nervous as I think my photos in week 12 will be the same as my halfway ones and that would be disappointing considering the work I’ve put in.
On Friday I had a session at the casino with my brothers and although I started like an angel, by late night we were hitting the cocktails and I devoured a massive amount of wedges with all the trimmings, which was HEAVEN !!! It was so nice to just eat and when I got home I was starving and happily cooked up some sweet potato chips and some spinach and ricotta pastries and they were HEAVEN as well. It was nice to feel full instead of satisfied…. Needless to say internally unhappy for the rest of the weekend…. It was fantastic and delicious at the time, but the body did not like it at all…. So have to try and keep that in mind for future “sessions”…. I wouldn’t change it for the world though, great time with my brothers….
It has been mentally difficult to go back into my nutritional food however, as it felt fantastic to just eat without worrying about the content, portion etc etc etc….. Last night I had a bit over my allotted food and did feel a little bad as it was just a “give in” to a craving and it’s the first time I’ve done it in the 10 weeks of the program so it played on my mind a bit, so back on track today. A good thing (well in a way) was that I weighed myself Saturday morning after the session and I had gained about 1.5kg… not a healthy way to gain the weight back, but it was nice to see and I went straight to the gym and it was fantastic training and feeling absolutely full and with excess fuel to burn. Even hungover I did better than other sessions I’ve had. I’ll be interested to see if I maintain a bit of that weight gain this week for weigh in. My inner control keeps telling me to “try and make up for it” either through watching food closer (is it possible?) or train more, but I really want to try and keep that weight on.
I’ve decided to do the next round of 12wbt that starts mid August. I’m happy with the body, but mentally I think I’ll be happy to just go back to my old binge “all you can eat” ways so I think I need a bit more “mental training” from Mish. Especially after this weekend…. Certainly an eye opener…. I can recognise when it’s a craving etc, but for some reason this pass weekend I didn’t care enough to ignore it….
Next round though I’m going to start with not counting every single thing I’m consuming and just eat healthy and train and see what happens. If the weight creeps on too much I can always go back to the control I have now and lose it again. I think I need to let go of the control a little or instead of this being my new lifestyle, and the choices automatic, it will end up a phase I go through and I’ll keep on going up and down substantial weights as I have previously. I know what I need to eat so I’m just going to do it without the counting. I’ll still keep a diary of food as it helps, but not as seriously as I am at the moment.
Anyway.. that’s about all for now…
Food for thought…. What is a habit that you currently have that is either of poor health or simply annoys you ? Have you ever tried to change it ? Are you in denial you have a habit ??? I was told once that it takes 21 days to change/stop a habit……
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